Cursing on the court

If you know my family, you probably know that I play tennis. The whole family does. And while I played as a teen, I never really took it very seriously then; it was more of a social activity than anything else. I played like twice ( or maybe ten times) between high school and marriage at 27 years old. When my husband decided to try out tennis, I decided I should go back to my old favorite form of exercise. This time, it wasn't just for socializing. I was picked up by a fun group of women to play on their competitive USTA team. Though I never liked competition much before, I got a taste of winning with my team and I want it more and more each season!

In other matters, I am a fairly polite person. At least I certainly try to be polite. I consider cursing impolite, especially in certain places like the tennis court! Since having Benjamin I have gone to great lengths to make sure I do not say impolite things in front of him - because you never know when they'll just hear it and start repeating what you're saying. But, unfortunately, I have found myself cursing on the tennis court. Not a lot... Maybe a couple times each match. Not loud... Certainly not loud enough for a singles opponent to hear across the court. However, even under my breath those bad words may be audible to a doubles partner or a doubles opponent when we are both up at the net.

I guess curse words just have to come out somewhere, and if not at home (thank goodness) then why not where I feel at my most competitive. Its not very sportman-like, and I don't really like it one bit, but I'm not sure how to stop. Maybe a new competitive sport where I compete with only myself? But I don't run anymore. Maybe I just start throwing out Fudge and Ship and hope it fulfills my subconscious need to curse? Hmmmm... Maybe.

Until I figure it out I'll just try to bite my tongue and apologize when something sneaks out because honestly I would rather curse on the court than say anything at home that is not worth Benjamin repeating. :)